I'm a second-timer

model (C) here

End

I don't want to be here

I'm not suppose to be here

I'm not suppose to be who I am now

I shouldn't even know you

I should just turn a blind eyes

I should just walk ahead

I should just ignore you

I should just kill you from my thought

Apparently, I can't

Apparently, I'm not that strong enough

Apparently, I dont have that much strenght

Apparently, I dont know how to do so

I shouldn't waste my tears on you

I should just say nothing

I should just stay unknown

I should just said nothing

But now it's all too late

Here I am, facing you with no absolute reason

Here I am, battling you with nothing on my hand

Here I am, holding back my weaknesses

I don't care with people around me anymore

I dont care, and I just dont

Why should I care with people who don't care about me?

Why should I try to be someone that I'm not?

Thick mask, warm coat, sunglasses

I squeeze my hands inside my pocket

I always have my mask on

I hide my tears with glasses

But, hey

It's summer

No one use warm coat for summer

And it's also applicable for me

I am no one

I prefer to be no one

I will just do my own things 

I will just do it without people knowing it

I will, and I must

no words needed for Nebulas. I'm dying for it here.

Alexander Wang F2011

Smooch. Seriously. Those are my 2 favs. And still have the other that were included in my 'favorite'. Nearly die when I scan through all of the photos. And I seriously love that peeptoe boots, and the lower part of the picture on left.

it's all too much

this is what happen when teachers fail to amuse you with their lesson in class

Sorry for the long update. Been busy catching up with my life, fandom, and around me.

Good night,

retarded me

i was bored. No, I was lying. I was pissed with my art project. So, there you go.

I love that dress <3 my mom bought it for me for my brother's wedding. But apparently that dress have no zipper and it'll hard for me to take it off because I'll have 2 dress. The one for the church, and the one for the reception. And I cant resist that socks <3 I've bought it quite a while but I rarely used. And you can see the mess from my art project down there on the floor. Too lazy to clean it up /whacked/

and, it's 2:53 am right now, so I better get somesleep. night! <3

Nameless name

Well, I dont really have much to update. Well, I have MUCH to update. But things around me keeping me not to update. Schoolwork, reading materials, etcetc.

But still, I cant resist myself not to post this <3

Lefty coat <333333 But  if I wear that kind of thing in indonesia, people will seriously thought that I'm crazy since indonesia never been that cold :( But well, love Stella McCartney since the day I found this (which is like 8014258035728934days ago, and I just had time time to post it now.)

Anyway, I've been doing some design lately. Well, not the best ever, but yes, I do some. I've been making mine (means original) and I do some impersonation of Lactose-Intoler-Art. Geez, so much in love with his illustration <3 Sooo original, and cute. Well, idk if you would want to call it impersonating since I seriously copy his illustration. Well, what can I say? Too much in love with him <3 I'll post some later. Later like in seriously later. 

*did I tell you that I think I've had enough of people taking credit of me and running around make me look like a retarded? well, now you know. *RL-rant LOL*

(c)pic : gogirlmagz.com

why not?

First of all, Happy Chinese New Year!
Well, late, but still. I had no time (or lazy you could say) yesterday to update since I have things to do for the survival of my fangirl soul, and yes, there you go. Actually I went no where. I dont even walk outside of my house. I just went outside to take my towel, and get back inside and do things inside my room. Some of my relatives drop by here, which is good since it meant that I dont really need to go outside and able to enjoy my 1-day cny holiday properly. And, yes. I'm an indoor shut-in type.

Yesterday when my cousin came to my house, he brought me CSI Miami Season 2 and cardcaptor sakura, whick make me goofing all day. And just when I was about to copy it to my external hard drive (yes, that's what I always do with CD), my laptop is acting up and the CD cant be detected. Well, it's not like that it's the first time. It happen about last month too, and when I tried with the CD that I burned with this laptop few months ago, it seriously work, which is really pissing me off.

Tomorrow, for seriously, I really want to post about JFW! Why? Reason? I've told you that I really love japan fashion havent I? Well, it's not rare that people saying that I love japan fashion because I love their boyband and then I love Japan, and everything about japan become just WOW in my eyes eventhough it's actually not really that WOW-ing. Well, just adjust it with your imagination.

--xo